Sling Shot

I think it's a sling shot.

We flew high. we had fun. in a very short time.

To be fallen again. Slapped hard on the ground zero.

I did not resent you. I don't have the gut.

But in any way, I'm grateful meeting you.

- Rimie Ramadan
Serpong, April 22nd 2019

For I am a broken porcelain
But I know God's still hear me

I beg Him for a beautiful remedy
for a forever friend
To accept and fill in this broken pieces

And He gave me a pair of hand to hold
A dazzling eyes that shines bright as he look at me
A pair of ear to listen
and a huge open arm to hug

and a heart who's forgiving and understanding
and a will, to keep moving to the brighter side

Thank You Allah, may You bless us 'til jannah.

Tangerang, 17 Maret 2019

Hancur

Aku bingung harus mulai darimana lagi. Yang kutahu hanya Allah SWT sesuai niat dan prasangka hambaNya.

Aku bingung harus mulai darimana lagi. Jika pijakan cinta pertama saja justru menghancurkan. Aku harus mencari cinta yang bagaimana.

Terluka, oleh seseorang yang harusnya mengajarkan cinta. Seseorang yang seharusnya menjadi cinta pertama putrinya. Hatiku sudah patah. Hariku sudah tenggelam. Hari ini adalah harinya.

Sampai dimana rasa puas itu? Seberapa tinggi rasa bangga itu? Seberapa jauh lagi aku harus mencapainya? Rasanya tidak berujung.

Judging

"Judging is easy, while listening is not. And more to understanding."

For instance, when you are gaming after a whole hellish day of studying, and what not. That occurs often to students. But how about when you're graduate? Well, the judgement is still stick to the people.

I had a fight this morning with my dad, as for judgement. So far I know, only mom has the Judging part based on her MBTI test. Whether it has immersed to dad, since he retired and being a "house-husband" he started to be judgemental. And i had the worst thing this morning.

I know I used to come home late since Toastmasters days, but last night was different. And his judgement is not contextual as well as not the right time. Last night was raining so hard, so damn hard and continuous since sunset. Me and my visiting friend was in IKEA, and we were done strolling at 8.20 PM. But the sky was full of lightning and hurricane, we decide to wait a little then take our leave. We were leaving at 9.10 as the rain stopped. I took her to the station and rushed to home. I arrived at 10.15 PM. Which is earlier than Toastmasters days. 

And this morning my dad said, "next time, u should be at home by 10 PM."

Should I just come home the next day?