31 Okt 2018

A Little Throw Back Anger

Somehow, yeah somehow, I threw back while hearing the song.
But somehow, it brought a different feeling on me.

You know, he was the only boyfriend i had. And when I end it up, I give it all to him. I sincerely pray for him to meet a destined beauty that match him. He found not long after, meanwhile I keep myself single. I was happy, sincerely. Yes, to be honest even before we started dating, I have a brotherly friendship with him. And it lasts when we end it.

And that day comes, the wife (yes, legal wife) suddenly messaged me. Just because i repost the news about M* the cat died. I was angry, because I assumed it as my baby. And in fact, I also invested money on buying it. Super angry, she never know and he never tell her as well about the investment. Meanwhile I didn't know what should i do. I was fucked up.

I know she was jealous. But I hate it if I was even forbidden to show it. I hate them both right now. But since I was a masochist, i did nothing.

"Bahagiamu semoga menjadi bahagiaku.."

Sorry bunda Helvy if i ruined this beautiful song. But what if the released happiness suddenly become hate?

-R-